What does Genesis 44:32 mean?
The Egyptian leader to whom Judah speaks is secretly Joseph: the other son of Rachel (Genesis 35:24) who was lost from his father Jacob (Genesis 44:18–31). That loss is what Judah has been explaining, including how the loss of Rachel's other son, Benjamin, would simply kill their elderly father. Judah makes clear that he himself will be responsible for the loss of Benjamin for the rest of his life. He made himself a pledge of safety for the return of Benjamin. This pledge was a serious and binding agreement. Judah would be formally responsible all his days for the loss of the boy and the resulting death of his father.This impassioned plea is not without a purpose. Judah has acknowledged his own guilt—at least in an indirect way (Genesis 44:16)—and knows he is being punished for what he did to Joseph many years before (Genesis 37:24–28). Demonstrating that he has learned something from all this, Judah makes a selfless proposition in the following verse (Genesis 44:33).